It's Monday and some of us will have the Fear
Do you remember starting WeightWatchers? That first realization that you needed to take control back away from both your mouth and your head? Then do you remember the fear? Where you start thinking "I actually am happy with myself, I'd be happier if other people didn't judge me on my weight, or if clothes shops made clothes for real people?
Has anyone else ever gone into a plus size shop looking like someone out of Mission Impossible, trying to enter, shop and leave the store while not been seen by anyone that they might know? I have!
Or, I'm not telling anyone that I'm doing WeightWatchers so that if I fail it's only my inner pride that's hurt?
Are you ashamed of yourself?
I was! and sometimes when people ask me if I really lost over 9 stone, I do feel ashamed. Don't get me wrong I'm so proud of myself that I did manage to take control and I'm even more proud of the fact I had the stamina and determination to withstand the long haul journey.
My life now is very different, I'm conscious of my eating habits and not just about the propoints fitting into my daily allowance or my weeklies but the nutrition. I'm also conscious that I need to let my body sweat to maintain it. So when I look back to what my mentality was 6 years ago, I get a stab of regret for my utter recklessness and disregard for my health, body and mentality.
However, I feel that I kind of needed to get to breaking point so that I could lose the weight, so that I would realize that if I really needed or wanted something, I could do it.
We all have regrets, but what can you do about it. Absolutely nothing. What will it achieve? Absolutely nothing. Regret should not be a button of self destruct. It should be your reconstruction button.
Of course this is easier to say 9 stone lighter rather then pouring out my inner most fears while they still are real and present rather than distant.
When I first started I had no clue as to what my goal weight was. I never thought about it because it wasn't real for me. It would be like putting your child into junior infants and telling them about the leaving cert exam?
I lived in the present. Week by week and pound by pound or half pound? My clothes were my goal. To fit into a size 18 if I'm being honest was my goal. If I got to that size I could shop in "normal" shops and that was my goal.
So to all the starters, re starters and plateau ers, when you feel that WeightWatchers is getting to difficult for you and your starting to feel different from all your friends, family and peers because you need to concentrate on your weight differently from those around you, you are different. If everyone that you ever envied wrote down on a piece of paper there true inner most body conscious fears and threw them into a pot, would you not take back the fear that could be changed? Well when it comes to weight you can change it.
Take back control of your own life, you only have one chance and I would rather be up dancing to my own tune rather than sitting on the fence eating a take away looking at other people living their lives.
Monday is a great day for fresh starts. I think it is actually scientifically proven aswel.
So start fresh today. Give yourself a mini goal and then when you reach it you will be reminded that you can do this.
The last Saturday of this month, myself and my husband are attempting to climb Carrountoohil. I still get the Fear when I think about it because I have announced it on this blog. What If I don't make it? Now I'm thinking, If I get to the top the view will be magnificent.
I still need to stay focused and these challenges for myself keep me focused and pushes me out of my comfort zone and reminds me that maintaining a healthy weight and body takes work.
If anyone wants to join me and a few other that are on the WeightWatchers Program head on over to my facebook page.
So after a much long winded intro here are the best food finds for this week.
I love the saltyness of these. 2 crackers for 1 WeightWatchers Propoint.
For your sweet tooth, each bag of 4 mini's has a propoints value of 2 and are available in Aldi and Tesco
These work out at 3 Weight Watchers Propoints
These are half price at the moment for the large pack in Tesco and each pot which is actually quite large has a propoints value of 2.
Enjoy the Niptuck way, so you don't have to!